Mshines.

Ive not updated for decades.
Due to busyness and laziness.
LOTS HAS HAPPENED.

Monday- Skipped school, most likely because I was freezin in air-conditioned places, and ended up with a flu.

Tuesday- Got my ass to sch, only to find out tht lecturer cant make it, due to a fractured hand. JakandNurulandI den made our way to play pool. Its been long since I'd played pool, Ive kinda avoided playin pool ever since I played with Syg, He's good~
I FINALLY GOT MY CK IN2U.
The first time I smelt it was the time i fell in love with it, and the time Syg gave it to me.
Aftr finishing Syg's bottle, I knew i had to get it again, AND IVE GOT IT.!!!
To me, its a scent of love, and its ever so sweet. !!!
Aftr tht, I went home, changed and went to meet Syg at Jurong.
Made our way to IMM.
AND, MY AUNTY CAUGHT US !!!!
DAMN IT.
DAMN IT.
DAMN IT.

I felt a poke on my back, upon turning, I realised it was my aunty.
DAMNNNN.
I felt my heart skip 10million beats.
I talked to her, and told her nt to tell anyone.
She gave me a choice on whether to confess to Daddy, And I cant remembr the other.
I told her tht I'd give her the answer the answer the next day.
Her words were things like " Why are you such a letdown? Why are you with a Malay? " etc etc.
Aftr tht, she called me, and told me to join her for dinner downstairs, I obliged and left Syg to go home, My heart ached, as I really wanted to spend my dinner with him.
Whn I reached to where my aunty was, with her Bf, we started to talk.
They tried to make it as light-hearted.
Bu their main point was to tell me to leave Syg.
They say they dont like Malays.
They keep asking me to go for someone better-looking.
WHATEVER.
I DO NOT NEED A HANDSOME BF, I WANT A GOOD BF.
I WANT SOMEONE WHO HAS MY INTERESTS AT HEART, NOT SOMEONE WITH A HANDSOME FACE WHO KNOWS NOTHING BOUT ME.
Our conversation ended well, and she told me to give her an answer by tmr.

But not too long, daddy gave me a phonecall, and told me to go down, I just knew what was waiting.
At first, it started all bad.
This time, I wanted to speak up for myself, I reasoned with him.
I guess tht the truth does hurt eh?
Adults just cant face reality, when its too harsh for them to handle, they back themselves up by using their authority as an adult.
But anyway, it turned out fine.
And everthing was settled peacefully, with a lovely daddy daughter hug.

Wednesday- Catched Money Not Enough 2, with Jak and Shivvy.
I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE.
Funny and touching, I cried.
Ive alwys loved Jack Neo's productions.
I dint feel 100% Good, due to what happened the night before.

When I reached home, it got worst.
I got into a fight with Daddy, on the phone.
I admit my attitude sucked, but I was stating the facts, just tht this time I dint bother to make my words sound nicer.
He got pissed off, hanged up, Called up agn and told grandma everthing.
I knew my ears were gonna fill up till the tip.
And it did, the things tht were repeated about 6mnths ago were repeated agn.

They want me to leave him.
They feel tht he cant support me.
They think he's bad.
They want me to find somebody handsome.
They are forcing me to leave him.
They dont think of my feelings.
They think they know everything.
THey think of themselves.
They dont understand love.

Dad says tht he's gonna disown me if I continue with him.
I told him tht Ive been with him for a year plus, and tht I can't let go.
And he says, Ive been with you for 18 years, what is ti compared to tht 1 year plus.
And I think :" Out of my 18years, You've probably only spent maximum 8 years with me. The remaining years you were all over the world. I remembr there was once whn you were in New Zealand, I really missed you so til I cried whn you called, but then? Ahma scolded me for crying, she dint want me to worry you.
Whn you were far away, you dint think bout me did you?
Den now? Whats the problem?
Now whn i think of it, Its like WTF x 100000000000000000000.

Im gonna choose who I wanna be with.
I know who I love.
I know how to see for myself.
I make my decisions.

If I choose Syg as my husband, I wont care what others say.
Im gonna show you all tht my choice right.
If they are considerate, they'd give me their blessings, NOT CRAP, like now.
I bet tht Daddy wouldnt have took it well if i reacted like how he reacted towards his gf.
But I DONT CARE. !!!
I LOVE MY SYG.



I wont say forever, Id say for the rest of my life.
ILOVEYOU